Hi there @andytheyoo
Some great elements in this one, was very curious about this punch & energy right from the start, that growling bass is very nice, but then I was lost in the breakdown and the drop afterwards. Not sure about the melody choice during those parts and the piano doesn't fits in this track, especially when played at lower notes, sounds really dull comparing to the rest of the track., but that might be personal taste of course
Well, what's this highest level you're keeping for your Kick & Bass ? That's the question If you start with Kick & Bass to loud, then you're gonna make everything else louder to make it cut through the mix and compete with the level of the Kick & Bass. That main lead synth after the breakdown is a good example of that. Don't be afraid to start with a Kick at -12 / -14 dB and build around this, you can still push the all mix louder afterwards.
You have a nasty "oomph" in this Kick, try to cut around 43 / 45 Hz and boost the punch of the kick at around 93 / 95 Hz, you should already hear a big difference. On the final Mix you could set an EQ with a high pass filter at 45 Hz and boost the mids, it should give a better balance to the all track. That's just to get an idea, things need to be fixed per track.
And as for the words that inspired you the title, it's a good thing to wonder, it means that you care about the result and of course you're progressing, keep it up